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Work is hetctic as usual... I don't panic that much when I work at home. Nowadays when I work in the Uni lab it's really hard to concentrate since there's lots of distractions (Because everyone is stress, sounds of sighing, whistling, people randomly saying things like 'You shut up!' for fun, and even the damn door that creaks loudly everything it opens and closes is quite tormenting...)

I want to laugh at the fact I feel like I model stuff that won't be seen in the end anyway, and still wonder why I do them. If I don't, my lecturers would go about telling me they shouldn't be modelled this way etc. etc. What's the point of changing it if they're not gonna be seen anyway? That's what YOU told me!

My presentation on Monday... can't say it was bad but it wasn't too good either. Let's just say my lecturers thought it was 'stupid of me' (Well, maybe not that mean of them, they don't show it and it was only one of them I'm getting the vibes from) to choose an Asian man for my reference when I should've chosen a European one since my character is originally from European. I understand from their point of view and I did reflect about it, but I really couldn't find the kind of reference I wanted, no offence but I don't see any of those europeans (Hey they could be Americas, they don't count as European either!) to be potential skinny unhealthly zombies, they look more like jailbreak gangsters (Some smaller versions) to me.

And the arms and hands on the piano, they think it's boring, not as expressive and too symmetrical.

And for some odd reason everyone loves to give me new ideas - Ever heard of 'Too many cooks spoil the broth?' That's exactly what I'm feeling and while I appreciate their help, at this point in life why would you think I'll have the time to change it?

One good thing is I went through the idea and the storyboard with a different tutor on Thursday, had some new ideas for the storyboard and it feels like it works out more better in my opinion. I just hope the marking lecturer will take it. I'm sick of changing it constantly.

Other than about Uni work, I'm so craving to much to draw anything manga (I now realise this urge of mine happens a lot if I am sick of my current work or am too pressured by my current work, my mind drifts off to different things.) Its bad really, so bad.

In KHR, I really dislike Adelheid (Or whatever her name is), Kaoru, Enma and I really want someone to slap some sense into them. My poor Tsuna, damn Shimon broke all the Vongola rings - what's up Amano-sensei!?

Not much to say atm, stressed, depressed, annoyed, worried, anxious it feels like an everyday thing (Don't worry, I still eat, not as much but I still do, funny enough my weigh doesn't go down like I wish it would 8D;)

I even feel lonely sometimes for not participating much around in LJ (Then again I do in FB, but it's always random)

I really want to say I wanna finish this damn project up, and at leats be proud to say 'Yeah, it at least looks like what I had in mind all along' and get a job (really want to get one in Frontier from cambridge, I'm quite interested in their work) and well, a place to call my own... even if I have to share...

But then there's that showreel sometime around October, so that means travelling back here to October again - I have no idea where they're holding it and I don't want to think about it after I handed my submission in.

Need Hug =3=

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Date: 2010-07-18 09:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*hugs* Is all I have to say! :)

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Date: 2010-07-18 10:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*hugs* Thankies, I need hug! I hope you're doing better than me! >.<;

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Date: 2010-07-19 11:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I often have my iPod with me. It helps keep me from me being distracted from my surroundings. (But then I really can't hear if people need me. ^^;)

Ah~, it sounds like they are still dragging time just by nagging too much on detail when time is so short... =(
So they want you to give character to the arms and hands? Why does it sound like something they could have suggested months ago when you showed your character sketches. @@

I can sympathise. Manga is such a comforting distraction. Drawing is a very relaxing affair (well, for those of us who loves drawing). At work, when things get too boring or too much, I tend to doodle. It's just a craving that needs to be released, or at least keep me sane. ^^;

*hug hug* It's not good to hear that you're stressing out like this. ='( But still good to hear you are eating. XD
FB is really distracting you, huh. I still feel alien using the interface whenever I go there. ^^;

Well, it's hard to say how things are going to turn out, and life will often throw you one too many curve balls. For now, concentrate on the present, when the time draw nearer, thinking and prepare for the future.

*huggles* Take Care!

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Date: 2010-07-19 10:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I have my ipod too. Though sometimes I had it switched off just incase someone calls me or they say something important. But it's also because I'm getting quite bored with my current soundtracks....need new moosic.... 8D;

Yeah, one of my classmates just told me 'Just show the stuff you will show in the end, and don't show the stuff you aren't gonna show to the tutors since they'll criticise you no matter what'.
Oh LOL! That's exactly what I've been telling some of my classmates and different coursemates. They don't tell me what's good or what works, they just tell me at the last minute.

I rarely doodle in front of people, I prefer to read news if I'm bored at work. Now, I go on FB, and normal emails just to check if anything is needed to be checked or done.
Drawing or thinking of new ideas is indeed a craving and needs to be released in my notepad of all things...

I guess I am stressed, I just want to finish this damn thing... ^^;
But yeah I still eat =)
FB isn't that distracting to me, in most cases it's more like I want to be distracted so I go to FB 8D; i only go there now because the people I interact with the most are over here - we're kind of too busy to get out of our seats so we communicate via FB... very very lazy of us 8D;

You're right, my main goal now is to finish that project...T_T

*hug hug* Thanks! ^^

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Date: 2010-07-20 01:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ah~, I see. Hmm... I can recommend podcasts to you because hearing people talk is pretty distract.
It can't be helped. ^^;;

I would take your friend's advice, seeing how this had been going on for quite some time. @@
Really, it's pretty annoying when they tell you things in the last minute, but thats how it is when you work too. ^^;

Oh, I can't doodle in front of people either! It makes me nervous. Even when I'm taking notes and people watch me write intently makes me nervous. XD;
At least our craving aren't doing us any damage, unlike smoking, drugs, and alcohol. =P

I know and can tell from your LJ entries. It will end, just see your self through it.
That's good. ^^
Ah~, makes sense to go on FB because everyone else is there. *nods*
lol! Sounds quite like how we are at work. Many of us are in one room, yet we still use Skype to communicate with each other. XD
The generation of computer users are very lazy!

Yes. *nods* And Best of luck! *hugs*
You’re welcome! ^^

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Date: 2010-07-22 09:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Podcasts would be cool! Sometimes hearing to fun talks (Like Drama CDs) can put me in a working mood too (Though personally I really do think it's because everyone is making noises like searching for something in their plastic bags, phone rings, bangs on table, whistles etc. @_@

Yeah, well today I showed it to my tutor, he says my updated version does look European so I'm much happier I guess 8D;
Yeah, which is why I hate showing it to those that just throw ideas at you but doesn't think about how much time you have left to change or do it x_X One of my classmates kept on telling me that I could have switches turning off instead of lightning to make the cut or shot/scene more interesting etc, but that's SO pointless since I've already mentioned I don't need the lightning anymore ESPECIALLY since one of my tutors said lightning is cliche. (A bit of a long story here & hard to explain without things to show).
I really find that person annoying (The one guy that give me useless ideas imo and the one that seems to have a thing for me as my flat-mate says it - I'm trying to avoid him! Another long story that I dunno if I had mentioned here on Lj or not....)

Hahaha XD, I won't feel that way if I'm in an exam though, people seeing me write... actually doesn't bug me, it's when people see me draw or doing my 3D piece I feel nervous about it. My brain could become blank and dunno what I am doing sometimes 8D;
Oh yeah! That's what I convince myself, I don't smoke, do drugs, abuse alcohol, set places on fire, gamble, etc.

I'll see through it! *clutches fist*
Hahaha, once I get my own place I'd like try Skype. I don't really use Skype since when I live with my brother, Skype is pointless, my mom still uses traditional phone services and is clueless with technology (Kinda of like would avoid the PC internet and stuff, she only likes it now since she can buy cheap air flights to somewhere else... =_=;; )

The generation of computer users are very lazy!
lol, I don't wanna admit that - but it's true! *gets bricked*


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Date: 2010-07-23 10:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I do depend on podcasts because listening to music can get a bit much after a while. But it's hard not to smile like a goof when a conversation in a podcast turns funny.

Ah, that good news! ^^
I remember you mentioning the guy who you wanted to avoid. He's still at it? XD;;; Sadly, he's not being as helpful as he thinks he is. Uh, lightening is cliché, but is still a necessary evil. XDDD

That's good. I wish I wouldn't mind as much either. But when people watch I start to make spelling mistakes due to all this attention and being nervous. XD;;
Aww. I would get more nervous with draws, but with graphic design work I'm somewhat ok. Maybe it's because I had my old manager sit right next to me and telling me exactly what she wanted. XD;
Yes! Much healthier in comparison to all that! X3

Yosh! *^o^*/ I mostly use Skype for messages and sending files, but it's also cool if you want to share and show off what you have on your desktop and stuff, live. I once had a colleague in Hong Kong watch exactly what I was doing on photoshop and messaging me instructions. It was very useful. ^^
Ah, well at least she can save money on flights, right? ^^;

It is! XD Sad, but true.


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